I only ever sleep deeply
when I’m on my period
It doesn’t make sense
How my body only affords me rest
when I’m bleeding
when I’m hurting
The rest of the time
my mind is whirring, whirring, whirring
horror on the back of my eyelids
danger through the gap in the curtain
I use regrets as bedtime puzzles
vanquish the dragon of day with
sensible, rational, logical, decisive, well thought out, reasonable, affordable, morally upstanding, understandable, admirable actions
I pace out holding patterns in the hope that
one day,
I’ll have rest without blood